The Wall

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I’ve hit a bit of a brick wall. It’s the same one I always hit when I’m writing, and while I’m not surprised, I am a bit disappointed. I had hoped that I would bypass whatever this is by blogging my novel, but the self doubt and all the other negative self-talk bullshit I put myself through is right here, front and center, staring me in the face.

My depression has reared its ugly head again also. I yelled at the kids all day, and was generally a bitch to anyone who was close by [which was just my family since I didn’t go anywhere] This could be partially hormonal. Also because I haven’t been doing my meditation regularly. Plus I just got over being sick, and we’ve had an incredibly stressful time of it financially the past month.

I guess I just need to wallow for a few hours Then I’ll rest, meditate, pray, and shower [water always makes me feel better]. I’ll maybe blog about all this when it’s over. For now, I’m done.

I’ll be better tomorrow. I REFUSE to do this again. I will not be defeated.

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About Shelbi

Work-at-home wife, mom of three kids, and caregiver for my brother, who has Cerebral Palsy. Never a dull moment, in other words. No idea how much I'll post, since I'm super busy these days, but maybe I'll get over here once in a while.

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