I’m supposed to go to church in the morning. I’ve got the shakes from being hungry, tired, and borderline hysterical for a while.
I don’t know what I want.
I need a shower, and some ibuprofen, and a nerve pill. I want to wake up tomorrow and know.
I’ve tried different ways to find answers, and it’s just not working. Things only go so deep, and I hit a wall. I look elsewhere to find the answers to the questions my heart is asking, and I find more confusion and loneliness.
I know there has to be more than this, but I don’t know what else to do to find it.
My head hurts.