Monthly Archives: June 2012

Shoot Me Now


So my husband, the kids and I got away for a weekend and it was excellent.  The only bad part was, I didn’t get nearly enough sleep, which means that today, I’ve fallen full-on into a hardcore mixed state of bipolar disorder, meaning that I’m having all the symptoms of mania in addition to all the symptoms of depression.

I hate my life.  I hate being a caregiver. I hate everything and everyone on the planet, including myself, and there simply are not words to express the white hot rage I am feeling right now.  I took my meds and I’ve warned my kids, but I have a feeling that if anyone talks to me at all tonight, I will scream and yell and maybe hit them with my fists.